Wednesday, March 23, 2016

My Research Paper! "An Examination of Transnational Business Masculinities in Forest Management"

When I was a young woman I worked in a computer parts store. I knew how to build a basic computer and of course knew our company's inventory well. One afternoon a gentleman came in to buy some parts for a computer he was building. He asked for several items, one of which I noticed was not compatible with the other parts. I asked him if he was planning on using them all together and he responded that yes, he was. I politely informed him of the conflict and he disagreed with me, getting a little gruff, "I know what I'm doing, it won't be a problem."  
I again stated that there would be a conflict and then he asked something that has stuck with me my entire professional career, "Can I speak to someone who knows what they're talking about. You know, a man?"  
My stunned silence was followed by a, "Sure thing! Hold on just one moment. A technician will be to the counter shortly." I had hatched a little plan.  
Matt, my favorite coworker (and technician) came to the counter and asked him what the issue was. The gruff customer relayed our interaction. Matt confirmed, "So, she told you there was a conflict and you needed a different part?" 
"Yes", the customer replied.  
"Well, she is right", was Matt's reply back and with that he turned around and walked away, leaving the customer staring sheepishly at me.  
I smiled, "Can I ring that up for you?" 
Unfortunately this situation is not unique. It happens all too often. Women are looked over or discounted because of their gender. In business, traits perceived as feminine are often seen as detractors when in fact, they should be considered as a way to temper the aggressive, masculine approach. In forest management, a more balanced construction of roles to include traits like caring, empathy and nurturing could result in a holistic form of management and increased sustainability. Ecofeminism and Forest Defense in Cascadia: Gender, Theory and Radical Activism" (32-49) discusses this idea.  
"A primary tenet of ecofeminism is that the patriarchal values of domination, exploitation, and control must be uprooted and our collective ethical landscape replanted with the more life-sustaining values of nurturance, care and reciprocity-values often identified as 'feminine'. (Although as ecofeminists from Ynestra King to Carolyn Merchant have pointed out, it is paramount that we view such traits as human values which all genders are capable of.) Furthermore, ecofeminism, like other feminisms, contains at its core a critical analysis of power and power relations between dominant groups and those that are marginalized, exposing ways in which certain groups-most notably men, whites, class-privileged elites, and humans-maintain their superior status through the subordination and domination of women, people of color, and the natural world."  
Deforestation – the clearing of forests to use the land for other purposes or to leave it as unused wasteland – is one of the most widespread and important changes that people have made to the surface of the earth. Population growth and the burgeoning demand for food, fiber and fuel have accelerated the pace of forest clearance, and the average annual net loss of forest has reached about 5.2 million hectares in the past ten years (FAO, 2010b). The trajectory of global deforestation has more or less followed the global growth rate of the human population, although the global deforestation rate was more rapid than population growth prior to 1950, and has been slower since then. Deforestation rates grow during times of population and industrial growth, then stabilize or even decrease once society has reached a certain level of wealth.        
Atmospheric concentrations of greenhouse gases (GHG) are at levels that are unprecedented in at least 800,000 years according to the Intergovernmental Panel on Climate Change. From 2000 to 2010 emissions were the highest in history. Significant scientific evidence shows that the destruction and clearing of forests, grasslands and wetlands in addition to the burning of fossil fuels, has resulted in a substantial increase in greenhouse gas concentrations in the earth's atmosphere. About half of the cumulative anthropogenic (human caused) CO2 emissions between 1750 and 2011 have occurred in the last 40 years. About 40% of these emissions have remained in the atmosphere since 1750. The rest was removed from the atmosphere by sinks, and stored in natural carbon cycle reservoirs. (IPCC 45) The earth's forests are carbon sinks, that is, they store carbon. A conserved forest not only avoids the release of GHGs, it continues to sequester carbon over its lifetime.   
The Intergovernmental Panel on Climate Change gives a grim outlook of the future in the summary of their 2014 climate change report: 
"Human influence on the climate system is clear, and recent anthropogenic emission of green-house gases are the highest in history. Recent climate changes have had widespread impacts on human and natural systems. {1}   
Warming of the climate system is unequivocal, and since the 1950s, many of the observed changes are unprecedented over decades to millennia. The atmosphere and ocean have warmed, the amounts of snow and ice have diminished, and sea level has risen. {1.1} 
In recent decades, changes in climate have caused impacts on natural and human systems on all continents and across the oceans. Impacts are due to observed climate change, irrespective of its cause, indicating the sensitivity of natural and human systems to changing climate {1.3.2} 
Surface temperature is projected to rise over the 21st century under all assessed emission scenarios. It is very likely that heat waves will occur more often and last longer, and that extreme precipitation events will become more intense and frequent in many regions. The ocean will continue to warm and acidify, and global mean sea level to rise. {2.2}" (2-10) 
The effects of past deforestation cannot be undone, but without efforts now to mitigate the effects of GHGs, there is a high risk of severe, wide-spread and irreversible global impacts. The analysis of mitigation scenarios clearly states that CO2 emissions must be reduced in order to start to reverse global warming. Responsible forest management will need to take the place of less sustainable practices. In order to change the current system, the past and how it has shaped the present need to be looked at.  
Forest management has historically been controlled by the patriarchy. One example to look at that has had its forest management laws and traditions studied extensively is Norway.  The 1989 Census of Agriculture and Forestry reported that 85% of the Norwegian private forest owners were men. In 1990 still only 12% of the forestry employees were women. In the case of Norway, 80% of the total forested area in Norway is family owned. Traditionally, a father would pass his land to the first born son. However, in 1974 an amendment took place, and with that revision the first born child, regardless of sex, was allowed the first priority to absolute ownership of the land. This is one attempt at gender equality but it has still been difficult to recruit women to forestry due to the already established male hierarchy. When women's recruitment to forestry has been discussed, it is argued that they do not need to be recruited to do the same tasks as men. Research on women entering male dominated fields has documented that women have to accommodate to a male culture in both thoughts and practice. They may experience open or hidden, active or passive, resistance from male actors, or community sanctions because they break local gender norms.  
In spite of the advances in women's rights and gender equality, our current system is still based on the traditional patriarchy of the past. While there have been efforts as far back as the 16th century to limit deforestation, they have been limited to only certain areas. The rate of deforestation has essentially gone unchecked in many areas, especially developing countries where traditional patriarchies are still in control. The definition of machismo is "exaggerated pride in masculinity, perceived as power, often coupled with a minimal sense of responsibility and disregard of consequences". Globalization has started to affect the perception and definition of masculinity, but the majority of power is still centered in the former imperial powers, Europe, the United States and Japan. (Hirst and Thompson 1996). R.W. Connell, an Australian sociologist & professor Emeritus at the University of Sydney known for her research on men's studies, hegemonic masculinity and southern theory has suggested the term transnational business masculinity as a descriptor for this new form of masculinity brought on by globalization of business. Through interviews with Australian managers, R.W. Connell found that "there is little of the old bourgeois masculinity-domestic patriarchy, snobbery, social authority, patriotism, religion, and so on". The association with power and preoccupation with the techniques of money remain, however. What is being observed is a shift to a more reflexive way of thinking – recognizing the circular relationship between cause and effect. Masculinity in business is in the process of being redefined and is not set as a hegemonic system yet.  
Rather than simply stating that more women should be in positions of power to increase sustainability, looking at feminine values and how they can affect sustainability should and has been considered. Dutch social psychologist, Geert Hofstede, developed masculinity scores to quantify how masculine a society is and also an Environmental Sustainability Index. Combining the two sets of data does show that the less masculine a society is, the more environmentally sustainable it is. (Casimir and Dutilh 321) In a study of the sustainable agriculture movement in Iowa (2000) scholars found that conventional farmers tend to display more monologic traits (manipulation, control, exploitation, self-serving) of masculinity whereas sustainable farmers display more dialogic (humanistic, communication-centered, relationship focused, ethical) masculinity traits. (Coldwell 88) 
While the idea of including traditionally feminine traits may seem to be playing to gender stereotypes and relying on the social construct of gender, it is more a discussion on balance. Every individual is unique and culturally, the traits we identify as male and female can vary. Some contemporary representations of masculinity seem to indicate that there has been a fundamental shift in men and masculinities to include more feminine traits such as being more emotionally expressive, more sensitive to gendered power sharing, as well as men representing themselves in a less dominant manner. A study done by Julian Jooste in 2008 "indicated that this fundamental shift might be a misleading notion to some extent" and that although certain hegemonic ideals, linked to the more global transnational business masculinities are changing, other general values linked to dominance have remained.  
Climate change is a very real and present threat. Any arguments on the subject have been laid to rest due to recent data. There needs to be mitigation of the carbon and GHGs being released into the Earth's atmosphere. One possible mitigation option is carbon sequestration which involves conservation of natural ecosystems. Having more balanced roles and a more dialogic view in forest management would lead to greater sustainability. Already, the perception of masculinity and traditional patriarchies are adapting to globalization and other forces. Actively including what are perceived as feminine traits – reciprocity, caring, nurturing - could lead to an even more balanced form of masculinity and gender equality in forest management.   
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Works Cited 
BrandthBerit and Haugen, Marit S. "From lumberjack to business manager: masculinity in the Norwegian forestry press. (Social Economy of Rural Life)." Journal of Rural Studies 16.3 (2000): 343. Web.   
Casimir, Gerda and Dutilh, Chris "Sustainability: a gender studies perspective" International Journal of Consumer Studies 27, 4 (Sep 2003) 316-325  
Coldwell, Ian "New Farming Masculinities" Journal of Sociology 43-1 (2007) 87-103  
Connell, R.W. "Globalization and Business Masculinities." Men and Masculinities 7.4 (2005): 347-64. Web.  
FAO. 2010b. Global Forest Resources Assessment 2010 – main report. FAO Forestry Paper No. 163. Rome.  
Hirst, Paul, and Grahame Thompson. 1996. Globalization in Question: The international economy and the possibilities of governance. Cambridge, UK: Polity  
Jooste, Julian "Professional Men's Expressions of Their Masculine Identity" University of the Witwatersrand (2008)   
Mallory, Chaone "Ecofeminism and Forest Defense in Cascadia: Gender, Theory and Radical Activism" Capitalism, Nature, Socialism 17.1 (Mar 2006): 32-49 

OOohhh Yeah! I rocked it.

I've been scarce on here as far as postings go since I've been incredibly busy with my writing from research class. It was for good reason though. The final research paper was turned in on Saturday evening, one day ahead of when it was due. This morning I checked my email and found that it had been graded. Shakily, I clicked through to the school's website. Ninety-two percent!!! 92%!! Yeah baby!! 

The relief I feel is immense. The school gave me a chance to prove that I could do well, and boy did I ever prove it. This was a retake, that is, I took this same course 10 years ago and essentially failed it with a 1.0 out of 4.0. So, like a D or F. Horrible. Absolutely horrible. This time I went into it a much wiser woman, older and better prepared. 

I'm incredibly excited about the rest of my education. I feel like I've been collecting the energy slowly over 10 years, working on myself and bettering myself so that when I did start this journey, I was ready to take full advantage of the opportunity. So, I go into the Spring 2016 feeling very good and very happy. 

Ryan and I in the Gemini Space Capsule at the Pacific Science Center in Seattle for my 37th birthday weekend of fun!

Tuesday, February 2, 2016

Bye Bye Belly!

The other day I was rooting around in the kitchen at work for some tea when I came across "diet tea". Not so wonderful memories of trying the diet tea my mom had around when I was a teenager came back to me so I knew to steer clear of it unless I was experiencing some, uh, congestion down below. (If you know what I mean.) It really got me thinking about diets in general and what I can do to bring my weight back down. 

This last summer I developed a lot of weight around my midsection due to a combination of leaving a physically active job and drinking alcohol. I've never been a regular consumer of alcohol, so the weight gain was somewhat of a surprise. 

After lying to myself about how hard I have been trying to lose weight I decided I need to make some permanent changes. My rules for myself? 

  • No soda at all
  • Drink plenty of water
  • Black tea with stevia 
  • Lean protein at least three times a day if not more usually from nuts or fish
  • Healthy dairy like yogurt or cheese 2-3 times a day
  • Add leafy greens and other colorful vegetables to every meal
  • WAY less sugar (hopefully no processed sugar once I get used to this)
  • Watch my sodium intake carefully
  • Alcohol only in strict moderation when out with friends (2 drinks max)
  • Movement throughout the day which usually consists of lunges/squats at my desk and stretching of my arms/shoulders/neck

A colorful diet is a healthy diet! (Source:
My goal right now is to lose 20 pounds by my birthday the first week of March. I'm fairly certain I can do it since I am not trying to make major changes. Just adjustments to healthier food options and exercise. I am NOT counting calories though. I am NOT eating diet food. I am NOT going on a diet. I'm making changes TO my diet which I will continue for the rest of my life. 

And please note, I am in no way a health professional! This is what works for me and should not substitute for actual medical advice or treatment. :) 

Monday, January 11, 2016

New Year Resolution?

I was so discouraged in May when I got let go from the motel I was working at. My plan got totally messed up. I wanted to keep working part time at the motel on the weekends and then do school full time during the week. Suddenly I was faced with a big gap between my income and budget.

Unemployment was hardly worth applying for. I had to wait for enough hours to come in to qualify and then it paid next to nothing. I got a job at an office in town and it has been a great fit. I gave up on school thinking it would be far too complicated to get back into. I had lost my financial aid and been put on academic suspension 10 years ago due to poor grades.

After Christmas something, most likely some sort of mid-life crisis spurred me to all of a sudden get extremely persistent in getting back into school. I went to the school and talked to an advisor. As it turns out, I should have never been suspended!! There was a clerical error that lowered my GPA to 1.91. It has to be 2.0 or greater to keep financial aid and stay in good standing academically. All of sudden things started falling into place. I spent the entire day at the school and was able to get registered for a class the next week!

I’m now re-taking English 102, Writing from Research. I got a very poor grade when I took it previously, so I decided that I would re-take it to 1) increase my GPA to be more competitive and 2) to start off with a class that I am SURE I can get an excellent grade in.

I’m still waiting for my financial aid to come through, but I’m not worried about it. I did all the work to get my request in early so that I would be sure to have funds available. Next quarter I should be up to full time or at least taking 2 classes. My eventual goal is to finish my Associate in Science degree and transfer to the University of Washington Earth & Space Science program. I intend to get my Master’s and possibly work towards a PhD. It would be fun to work in the exogeology field (studying the geology of planets other than Earth) but who knows if there will be a research position available years down the road. I know that whatever field I end up in, I want to do scientific research. I enjoy the tedious nature of research and I am detail oriented. When I worked for Oshkosh Door Company, I was an order detailer. I loved it. My favorite job of all time. My co-workers joked that only someone with obsessive-compulsive tendencies could do the job.

Space. My final frontier!

My choice was reinforced recently. One of the readings we had for this first class I’m taking was very dry. I had no problem staying interested and comprehending the material. Apparently no one else liked the article! I used to feel left out and weird because of how my mind works. I’m learning to appreciate my differences and use my unique skillset to my advantage. I’m not good socially. I’m terrible. I’m great with data and processes though.

So, there’s my long update to my goal of getting into school. I’ve tried taking the focus off of my chronic pain and limited physical ability recently. Whatever happens, happens. Getting angry about it isn’t going to help. Here’s the small bit of an update on that end of things.

My primary care doctor has been prescribing to me and referred me to another pain specialist. One that does not prescribe narcotics. According to the pain specialist, I have no other options left. She said I wouldn’t be a good candidate for nerve ablation and that the best I can do is to go to physical therapy. Well, I already do physical therapy exercises and I’m still in pain. She told me, “Well, that’s why you’re on pain medication.”

Hold on. Wait a second.

The last pain specialist I went to told me that I was too young to have pain and that injections and nerve ablation would make it so I wouldn’t need pain meds. Which is it? Am I supposed to keep pursuing surgical intervention or just resign myself to being on pain medication the rest of my life?

This is why I stopped ruminating on it. I’m so confused. It feels like I don’t get good care because I’m on Medicaid. I see my primary this week and I will tell her what the pain specialist said. I really just want to get into a good routine where my pain is managed and I am able to live my life. I have a lot left to do and going to dead-end appointments where I end up crying isn’t one of those things I want to do. Just give me my meds if that’s all that will help and let me move on with my life.

Monday, October 5, 2015

It Happened So Fast

"Call me when you get this..." is the text I woke up to that morning. Instant adrenaline rush. Ryan never asks me to call him.

"My mom fell last night, got a skull fracture and is in the ICU", he tells me.

I don't remember the rest of the conversation. I know I was crying and shaking when we hung up.

Queue a whirlwind trip to Portland and a blur of updates from his father. She's improving, moved out of ICU, changed from critical to serious... the realization once the adrenaline wears off that this is a marathon, not a sprint.

We are forever changed as a family. What happens now afterwards will define us as a family.

(Ryan's mother fell while on vacation. She suffered a serious traumatic brain injury late September 16th and was flown to Portland very early on the 17th. As of October 5th she is in serious condition, still in Portland and we are working to get her brought back up home to Western Washington.)

Thursday, September 17, 2015

Testing, Testing, One Two Three

A groan of tedium escapes me,
Startling the fearful.
Is this a test? It has to be,
Otherwise I can't go on.
Draining patience, drained vitality.
This paranoid, paralyzed vampire act's a little old.

But I'm still right here

Giving blood, keeping faith,
And I'm still right here.

Wait it out.

Gonna wait it out.
Be patient (wait it out).

If there were no reward to reap,

No loving embrace to see me through,
This tedious path I've chosen here,
I certainly would've walked away by now.
Gonna wait it out.

If there were no desire to heal

A damaged and broken man along
This tedious path I've chosen here
I certainly would've walked away by now.

And I still may ... [sigh] ... I still may.

Be patient.

I must keep reminding myself of this.

And if there were no rewards to heal,

No loving embrace to see me through
This tedious path I've chosen here,
I certainly would've walked away by now.
And I still may.

Gonna wait it out.

Tool - The Patient, Lateralus

Saturday, August 8, 2015

Cautiously Optimistic

I decided to make a separate post to keep up with my right leg/sacroiliac joint pain saga.

Yesterday I got an injection into the right SI joint itself. Well, not before first passing out while getting an IV started. I was so embarrassed. I've passed out before from needles but it has been over ten years since the last time.

The doctor said he was able to really fill up the joint and that it often isn't an easy thing to do, but it went really well in my case. I have so little pain from the injection itself this time! Usually I'm in massive pain for three days, but today I'm in much less pain than I have been and my leg weakness is drastically improved. I'm hoping the relief lasts for awhile. I could get used to being able to walk & hike again!

I got all my health records forwarded to the pain doctor and I see them next week. I'm nervous but my last call to them did make me feel a little better. I was trying to reschedule due to my new job but there was nothing close enough to move me to. During the call though, the receptionist asked if I would see a specific provider. It was the one that has made me cry the two times I've seen them. I told them absolutely not and that I have no problem with the other providers I've seen, just not this specific one. He actually said, "You're not the first to say that."

I feel SO much better knowing I'm not the only one that this provider has not gotten along with. No one should be made to feel like a drug addict or that their pain is insignificant. Chronic pain is so hard to live with and no one's pain is the same. 

So many more hikes to look forward to!